Salam
Hye korunk...i wanna share a little bit things bout a guy named harui naru..and another guy

Harui naru. Ive come to like that name so so much. Rather than having a so called boyfriend name, peter.pan ..this virtual name is more official. Peter.pan is a so called name describing how that guy would be and how my dream guy might look like.. harui naru is a virtual name i made for him..when i meet him one day

Previous one...i used Syaoran snce i loves ccs and tsubasa chronicles so much. My childhood friends would said im the sakura. If im sakura, my bf would be syaoran - that what i thought. Then, i ve overcome that era...

About another guy...im not sure how i feel about him. Weve been friends for such a long tyme. I did distance myself away from him bcause he has so many fans. The girls like him. I can see. But, one day..he wave at me smiling. I got pretty shock. He said that..ive became different, we were close but suddenly i went distance from him. He is hurt. The days after he wave at me, we bcame close again. Im glad that i have such a good friend like him.

I did thought, 'ahh..a good guy like him..i wonder if one day he bcame my bf' but..that is just too impossible.

I dont know why. Mybe ive bcome too desperate to hve one...bf...hurm...im crazy. I know. I admitted it. My feelings toward him? Hurm...some part of my heart thinks he IS really special to me and i dont want to make he hate me. Some part of me only thinks him as a friend. Im confuse.

I guess..im scared. If he knew how i feel toward him, mybe he would distance himself from me and mybe i would ruin our friendship..

I always share my probs with him bcaise i feel comfortable. He is a nice guy. He likes to tease me and i can never wins againts him. I feel comfortable.. sometimes i wish that he would likes me..hahahaha..but...i guess he only thinks me only as a friend.

Syaoran? Sometimes..part from me thinks of him snce, he is the first one that bcame my bf. As the matter of fact, i dont even know whether he actually likes me or he is just going on with the flow toward me.. if he ever ask me back...i dont think i can accept. It depends on the situation.

About that another guy...i like him. But i dont want to ruin our friendship. If he likes me back...thats OKAY!! Lets go on with it..! Hahaha...but, for him to like me would definitely be impossible. To tell u the truth, im confise with my own feelings. I want to wait for a guy to come to me and confess that he likes me and then manage to make me fall for him. That kind of guy.

To tell u the truth too..sometimes, i did think to go up to that another guy..and say.. 'can i at least pretend to be ur gf for the meantime u find a real one?' How i wish....but.....

Ill just wait...someone somewhere..is made for u..for me..............

Im jealous seeing couples!!! I want to share my stories and probs with a real trusted guy too....sobss...

Harui.naru i will wait for u. And sometimes, i do wish that u would be 'him' ~HiRo~