Salam.

its been a while, right?

finally got the time and mood to update my blog

well, lets just start

before my Diploma ends, I've been asking opinion from my friends,

whether should I change my course or not?

I studied Diploma Estate/Property Management - it wasnt my choice thou

but, I manage to get good grades it in

i expect to receive opinions, but, most of it were, perspectives..

'why would u change it?'

'just follow up till degree in the same course'

'what would that course do anyway?'

most of them were filled with negativity

so, i stopped asking for opinions , start thinking by myself

asking my family about it

they asked me to carefully think about it and choose wisely..

since I manage to grad with good grades, dad asked me again whether i'm sure about changing course

i said, yes

it was tough, i got family problems, which leads me to not wanting to pursue degree

it was , such, a heartbroken moment.

after a proper discussion, i went to the interview for Degree. 

interview? knp ada iv?

sbb kos Arts and Design.

about a month wait, i finally got the iv result,

i tell no one

not many of my friends know

I'm tired

of being judge

i dont like judgemental people

4Mac2018

i entered Degree Life

Bachelor/Degree of Creative Photomedia in UiTM Puncak Alam

i met new friends, as I was the only Property student that entered AD, i knew no one.

i had a friend from Building course entered Architecture for Degree.

i'm at the same level at STPM students. start over in semester 1. 

meanwhile, my other Property friends already in semester 3 as they continue from Dip in the same course. 

i mind, nothing.

unlike my diploma life, I approach people openly.

I starts conversations, i made friends openly. 

if i wanna join the hangout, I'll speak openly.

i told my friends, if they offend by me, tell me directly, let solve any misunderstandings on the spot

no harm feelings, 

lets be healthy. lets have a healthy relationship.

if u dont like it, tell

for me, i;m not the old me anymore, 

i dont let people lead and decide for me anymore

i will be more bold.

the DIFFERENCES between my Diploma and Degree life are;

; Dip, we have competition, students just want to be more appealing than others, sometimes, they know stuff more but doesnt like sharing it with others, unhealthy kind of competition,

; Degree, i see competition too. its a must. but, i see a healthy kind of competition. they shared their tricks and techniques. they smiles honestly when they find people having the same interest as them, honestly saying "i'll teach you about it" , "lets do it together" , "lets practice together" .

we knows, we need a LOT to survive in this course, so we're helping each other..

sincerely

to tell u the truth, in my circle, there's only 2 girls of us. the others are boys. in my class, we got 5 girls and the other 13 are boys. 

even just in early semester, we already heard other classes said "we envied of you guys, u get along so well"

the only think i want to avoid, making group circle. 

lets all be friends rather than making circles

we got deadlines, a lot of them, we got to shoot and redo

shoot again, redo again

uncountless time.

i used to say AD is an easy going course, but, now when i feel it, it wasnt true at all

EVERY COURSE and STUDIES in the world, are HARD

dont compare

EVERYONE are trying to SURVIVE

if u think photomedia is easy going, try it

lets see if u know about good composition

i know that they are people that didnt even study in photography but able to have their own business in photography etc, 

thats true..

but, thats nothing wrong in learning properly abt things u loves

i dont judge u

we dont judge u

why did u judge us?

bcause we're useless?

shallow minded people thinks like that

(sorry for rudeness, but thats the truth)

after abt a month of being quiet about my degree, i made a statement and declaration on IG

i received feedbacks , positive ones.

i know they r still negatives ones out there, but whatever

when i first entered Diploma, people asked me, what is EM?

Estate? Ladang? getah? felda?

"no, its property"

now, when i entered Degree in Photomedia, people around me asked again,

"what photomedia do? what did u study, anyway?"

i'm sure the world is vast in modernisation, so,

people, please GOOGLE it

i'm tired of answering

u've grown big, u can think wisely and positively,

support each other, other people..

thats what human do to live in harmony 

i , am a late starter.. but i WILL BLOOM.

i STARTED off being in Matriculation in Accounting, FAILED to continue my Degree ,

RESTART in DIPLOMA of Estate/Property Management, for 3 years

DIDNT continue for DEGREE

RESTART my DEGREE in DIFFERENT course, another 3 years to go..

(where my other Dip coursemate only got 1 half years to grad in Degree)

my high school friends are getting ready to finish their degree..

my matriculation friends are all working by now, getting married and have a stable life where they can support their family,

my diploma friends have already found their path and managed to take short cut in degree...

while me, having so many UTURNS..

if u think ur life is hard? but doesnt feel what/how i feel, my life is HARDER

but, there are people out there are having a much more HARDER life...

Allah knows everything

He planned everything

He trust us, with tests

We

Should trust HIM too