salam

hye hye

I'm home!

cuti study week

and then got family matters skit

so, balik lak

plan nk balik dua tiga hari je

tp, since ad hal..

lma la skit lepak kt umah

heee

knp tajuk cmtue..?

hhee

me n my crush lah..

lol

ak ad mnx ramai nasihat

since ak bt novel english,

novel english ssh nk publish kt msia..

samada nk publish sndiri..jual sndiri

or ceburi dlm bidang Malay punya..

popular or stabil dahulu..

bru la cri modal utk terbitkan y english tu

ohho

cm interesting

editor ak p0wn sruh ak try Malay..

tu p0wn sbb dy taw gaya penulisan  ak

jd, ak sbnarnya dh lama bli satu buku Frostbite and sequence ke dua

bknnya ambk idea dr ctu.. but

the books, is really..

idealing

jd, ak dpt la smngt dr ctu

I am already starting to write Malay book

not novel

something else

it might be interesting

it might be not

but, I'll try...

huhu

suggesting for the book, title

Pensil: Nostalgia

insyaAllah,

sbb ad editor cntct ak n berminat

dy y offer sruh ak try bt something in Malay

insyaAllah dlm masa terdekat ak siapkan

tp, i'm in roadtofinal ni

lol

pndai2 la ak bahagikan masa..

tgh cuti kt umah ni, mybe bley tulis

slow2

skit2

InsyaAllah

doakan y terbaik

amin

salam

hye gaiss.. 

FADED

i just learned that words another meaning yesterday.. 

people say Im good in English but, I think Im still lack of vocab. 

anyway, lets proceed to todays topic that i would like to share with everyone

have you ever dreamed of havin something that u cant own easily? 

i did. 

and its a camera

DSLR camera

ak xtaw la sjak bler ak start interested nk bli dslr ni.. dlu mnat bese je.. gna digital camera pown dh kira okay.. 

but, then.. my dream got bigger.. 

i loves taking photos as everyone loves them. it made me happy as seeing them smile adoring my photos. it was awesome. that feeling

never forget it

tapi, bkn sng nk dptkan your own dslr.. 

its not cheap

mahal sgt

depend on quality and brand

hurm

at first ak mnat Nikon but then, Canon

well, mmula canon, tp beralih ke nikon.. then Canon balik.. lol

Canon bjaya tawan hati ak balik.. bguih nya.. 

seeing anyone y ad dslr..makes me jealous.. i did

cmner korng bley beli? 

mahal kowt

abah taw ak mnat dslr.. but , he was hasistating to get one for me.. 

sbb mahal

and cm xde function blikan utk ak sbb xde kaitan dgn kos y ak ambk kt U

he did said, i can ask anything from him in September

ak berniat nk try mnx dslr..

until one day, he said

'3.5 ke atas tros abah blikan'

sentap ak.. hurmm

yes. i cried

xde kyakinan nk dptkan pointer tu..
ak sedar , study ni bknnya makin sng
makin susah
ak xde kyakinan nk dpt dekan..
hurmm

abah berniat nk blikan ak hp
sbb , dy nk sama tarafkan ak n my sis..
sbb mmula along tkar hp..
tu hp prtama y bt0l2 blikan utk along
then, my mom tkar hp sbb hp dy rosak..
then abah lak..
straight lak hp diorng rosak..
berjnji agknya hp2 tu.. lol
 ak pnya hp dh lma rosak, sblom bli hp umie, slpas bli hp utk along
tp, masa tu, xde bajet n ak p0wn xde mnx tkar..
abah bg hp lama dy..
tu p0wn y dpt pcuma.. ehhe

ttba abah sebut nk blikan satu..
ak xkisah..
dy y malu..
sbb kwn2 dy slalu sebut2..
kwn dy slalu order hp dgn abah,  utk ank dy
mahal2 lak tu
bler kwn abah tnya,
'anak ko pkai hp apa?'
abah ckp,
'hp murah ja..RM100 tu p0wn dpt pcuma..'
kwn dy ckp,
'uishh.. bgusnya ank ko..xminta2 eh?'
abah diam je

aku xkisah
aku lg prefer dslr..
tp, hurmm
org offer betis, nk paha..
so, ak trime la

tp ak minat photograhy
xdpt dipertikaikan
kdg2 nk pnjam dslr kwn tu.. smpai dy kne kelentong mcm2
nk gna la itu ini..
ak jd segan
slalu nk pnjm xdpt..pdahal dh gtaw awal2
nmpk x permainan nya dsitu
sakit hati
kecil hati
kecewa

sebak

smpai ak terlintas dlm hati,
ak nk give up photoraphy
ak nk stop
slagi ak xdpt y sndiri punya, ak xkn terlibat lngsung dlm photography
tu apa y ak ckp
ak niat

tp, xsmpai sehari,
ak dh terckp kt kwn ak..
dy tnya,
'eir, nk p mna?'
ak ckp,
'mna lg..p shoot la'
padahal ak nk g lepak2 ambk angin ja..
hurmm
eira eira

ak nangis..

ak cntct hudal..
ak gtaw dy
hudal sruh tabah
dy kata, xde dslr xsmestinya ak kne give up
bersabar

bt0l tu

cuma agk sakit hati
terkilan je

aku dh faded
faded..
bukan fed up

selalu iklan kt tv sal kmera
canon
lau ad photo show-off
abah mesti pggil
'adik, ni photo-face-off ni'
dy jgak y galakkan ak..
dy taw ak mnat

tp tiap kali iklan dslr kt tv..or mna2..
ak tgk.. ak pndang
snyap
abah p0wn snyap
awkward dctu

anyway, final dh dkat
ak nk focus final
ad rezeki..
ada la
ad jodoh,
dpt jgak dslr tu..
ak xperlu merintis..
heee
insyaAllah