Salam

hey yaa~~

its been a while

or not~~~

this time entry is about, 

my second seventeen concert!! yeeheyyy!

the first one was more awesome actually

i dont know how to describe, but, well

i had more fun at the first con than the second one

the same thing is , 

it feels so quick and short

greetings and then , ending ments

the last organizer was IME

the second con organizer was Fast Track Event

based in Singapore

first, 

the venue,

it was held at MIECC

Mines International Exhibition Convention Center.

for the first impression, i was like, 

'exhibition center ?'

when the floor plan of the con came out, it was rather small and far from the stage

the first con floor plan was a lot more better

it was held at Stadium Negara

then, I read the notes about the seatings, 

it says, VIP and CAT1 will be the standing zones

while CAT2-CAT4

will be the tiered seating zones

if its 'tiered' it means, the seatings will be leveled. 

this way, people at the back can see the stage well

a day before the con, 

I received many msg regarding the tiered seating, 

guess what..

CAT2 tiered seatings, isnt tiered at all..

it was flat

Carats from CAT2 were all having heartbroken and felt betrayed.

i kept on my positive mind and just go with the flow, hoping there nothing wrong

on D-Day, 

went to the venue early, at 11am

have some meals, i started to feel good

about my health

me, my sis and my cousin went to a stroll for some freebies

there are some people distributed freebies inside The Mines

while the hunt, we met few new friends

Ezzati and Eli

they tagged along with us

we went to prayer and there we met a Japanese Carat that came from Bangkok (for studies)

her name is Saori

she tagged along too

we went back to MIECC for some more freebies and went separated ways with Saori

she is in the VIP zone

during the waiting, we noticed that it was about to rain so we shelter under MIECC at the parking lot

we waited for another friend of mine, Shidah

we have a talk while waiting for the rain to cool off

we were right beneath the MIECC, the stage

so we can hear the boys were rehearsing

it was so real

their voice sounded so original

the laughed to the mic noticing we're listening to them

those crazy boys

my and my troops went back to The Mines for Asar prayer 

there was when I really am unwell

i started coughing

my voice disappeared slowly

my throat hurts

After a while, we went back to MIECC and started to be in line

actually, we didnt realized that we're in line until we noticed those behind us

they were lining behind us

it was so funny

automatically, we're in the 'line' position

entering the venue, i make sure my sister, cousin and friends stayed with me

entering, I saw a huge SVT backdrop

i want to take a picture with it but the guards seem to rush us to enter the hall

immediately, i did

i sat on my seat and , OMG

i couldnt see anything

the seats are all at the same level

the front heads are blocking my sights

plus, there camera section in front of us too

i started to mumble things i cant even remember, 

i turned back and saw some girls, 

i said 'hi' , they noticed my voice,

i said, 'im not feeling well, i lost my voice before the con even starts' 

and they laughed.

i thinks i was the temperature

the con was awesome

but, i honestly cant enjoy much at all

i cant see well

i cant enjoy well

i dont know why am i there

but, 

i enjoyed listening to SVT 's songs

they are my favs

they ments cheered me up

they made promised to come again

and even made us promised to come again too

leader, naughty boy

they thanked us for the hand banner

which written 

'Thank You for coming again'

they said they were extremely touch by it

they told us to get back home safely

eat something delicious and have some rest

i saw sooo many spoilers

like, the JUMP

the, mini heart

which indicate the sign of SVT n Carat together

formed a mini heart

so many suspicious spoiler

hoshi's the best!!

'I'm your princess'

its actually, 

'i;m ur prince'

lol

cute hoshi

u r a boy

not a girl

i came back home, had a bad fever along the night

next day, went to send over some stuff at my aunt house

when to my hostel

when to UK (clinic)

got temperature measure

it was 38.1

the highest i ever get

still didnt get any MC

wowww

in the evening, i just sleep

my sister took good care of me with putting some cool pad on my forehead

making it a bit cooler

my voice is gone completely

i talked using sign language

peopel really thoughts,

'u scream a lot during the con? thats why u lost ur voice'

no lah!!!

i lost my voice wayyyyy before the con

I'm a Carat but I'm not a typical fan that likes to screams and shouts and jumps around during the con

I just dont have that much energy

in short, I DONT SCREAM OR SHOUT

i just enjoy the con very well

behavely

is it a bad thing?

well, here go so, a short brief abt me going to IdealCutInKL 2018

till next time 

Salam

hey guys

its been a while

its 10:54 pm

and i am soooo damn sleepy

i think i've been very busy thinking about others lately..

hurmm..

others hardships became mine

and i feel so damn stupid

Tales with Eira seems like not going so well

since i'm blank of ideas

anyway, 

its been 3 years now

since Kuhai left us

it feeels like just yesterday we got to know each other..

hangout

meetings

handling events

meetings again

gathering

from being the first batch of the community, 

we became the seniors

and he became the president

well, now, its Eim's turn to b the president

Kuhai's legacy

Yes, 

we set up the community together

but, it's Kuhai's pure legacy

with just continue it

hoping it would last long

and Yes,

it did

we are now having juniors

new batches 

we welcome freshmens

we are waiting to retire

we supposed to retire last year, 2017, but, I guess everyone has the heavy heart to officially leave

our contract has already ended

but, we ignored it

somehow, its automatically got renewed

it was somehow, awesome

Kuhai used to say, 

'i want us to be successful. i want us to be in the news. I ! want to be in the news'

and he did

the news telling the world about his death

everytime 19.09 came,

we will stop any conversation in our group chat

remembering the late Kuhai's memories

everytime 19.09 came, 

we will remembered his words,

everytime 19.09 came,

we will cry

Kuhai is a very positive yet cheerful guy

he solved problems carefully, thinking about the others

putting ahead others 

ignoring himself

sacrificing himself

in good ways

he is the guy u can find in ur dreams, fantasy, drama, fairy tales

he is the one

the friend anyone would definitely want to have

a friend no one wants to lose

dear, HeartStar

this is a special entry , about our dearest friends

who passed away in 2015 due to an accident

Tengku Haizry

hey guys

its been a while, right?

its been a while for me too

honestly, i dont find it

the meaning of living

lol

just saying

its semester break

identity well hidden in the past 1 semester

good job, eira

people have been knowing my friends lately too

my friends befriends each other

trust?

i dont know

i honestly , dont know who to believe, trust anymore

i'm sure my friends think that too

'that impossible'

'eira did that? no wayy'

yup, things around me and whats going on with my life are just, 

too impossible to be believed in

i'm just a girl

a regular girl

ordinary girl

unpopular

not a person people would put in their 'must befriend person' list

i am me

just me

plain dull me

why did i think negatively?

because people around me made me thinks this way

its actually also a part of my fault

i dont try hard enough

well, when i did

people just backstabbing me

anyway, 

i'm active with my vlog in my youtube channel

and , ever since instagram have a new feature, IG TV,

i was wondering of putting up my new program in the house

i proposed this idea when i was in my last semester of diploma,

because of lack of time given, even thou the proposal was accepted, 

the set ups were put behind..

so, i couldnt continue with the program

my wills are quite strong, lol

so, i'm thinking of doing it again, myself

using the IG TV

features?

a lot!!

radio broadcast, podcast, vlog, discussion, etc

its another way to get close with my followers and another way for my followers to get to know me more..

i think, its a friendly way to start~~

lets just hope the new program would be awesome!!!

Tales with Eira, 

coming soon~

check out my ig,

 eira_athirah14

eiraathirah_arts

twitter

EiRa_iAm

 

Salam

hai dear HeartStars~~

Ogenki?

Watashi wa genki desu~~

Ohashiburi desu ne~

I'm almost done with my first semester in degree of Creative Photomedia~

final is next 3 weeks

how was it? so far so good

and I got far now~

Alhamdulillah

its hard , but its normal

learning isnt easy

theres nothing easy in this world.

if it does, how can we taught ourselves to get stronger by the time?

its almost Raya too

baju raya? i dont know

i leave everything to my sister and mom

to tell you the truth, i can feel the pressure and stress well here in degree with this major compare to the last major during diploma

is it because of the level? diploma n degree?

i think so

but, what i 98% sure is, major with assessment sure is hard

u know, what i see around me nowadays are,

i see people are moving toward the different paths already

everyone got their own plans

i see my schoolmates leaving me behind, found their future and belongings 

while i am still searching and learning more

yet, they already find the place they belonged

envied them

but

i trust HIM

i'm always updating my wordpress nowadays

 short stories combining my real stories and make up ones

i am actually very sleepy right now

dont know what to do

a second, i remember what i want to do then another second, i forgot

i just cant wait to end my first semester

also, i will convo this october

i dont really feel like going

i dont even feel like convocation

along will convo in october as well

i just hope we wont clash in dates

but, i do hope that we can both have photoshoot in our robes~

it would be sweetly awesome

dear HeartStars~

do you think the world nowadays are going to get better?

will you be better?

have a better life?

will the world gets harder?

its just, the future is sooo obvious yet so complicated

get what i mean?

i really cant wait to start my own journey where i can gain income to support both my parents and sister

its a long term goal for me

always

pray for the best

insyaAllah

Salam.

its been a while, right?

finally got the time and mood to update my blog

well, lets just start

before my Diploma ends, I've been asking opinion from my friends,

whether should I change my course or not?

I studied Diploma Estate/Property Management - it wasnt my choice thou

but, I manage to get good grades it in

i expect to receive opinions, but, most of it were, perspectives..

'why would u change it?'

'just follow up till degree in the same course'

'what would that course do anyway?'

most of them were filled with negativity

so, i stopped asking for opinions , start thinking by myself

asking my family about it

they asked me to carefully think about it and choose wisely..

since I manage to grad with good grades, dad asked me again whether i'm sure about changing course

i said, yes

it was tough, i got family problems, which leads me to not wanting to pursue degree

it was , such, a heartbroken moment.

after a proper discussion, i went to the interview for Degree. 

interview? knp ada iv?

sbb kos Arts and Design.

about a month wait, i finally got the iv result,

i tell no one

not many of my friends know

I'm tired

of being judge

i dont like judgemental people

4Mac2018

i entered Degree Life

Bachelor/Degree of Creative Photomedia in UiTM Puncak Alam

i met new friends, as I was the only Property student that entered AD, i knew no one.

i had a friend from Building course entered Architecture for Degree.

i'm at the same level at STPM students. start over in semester 1. 

meanwhile, my other Property friends already in semester 3 as they continue from Dip in the same course. 

i mind, nothing.

unlike my diploma life, I approach people openly.

I starts conversations, i made friends openly. 

if i wanna join the hangout, I'll speak openly.

i told my friends, if they offend by me, tell me directly, let solve any misunderstandings on the spot

no harm feelings, 

lets be healthy. lets have a healthy relationship.

if u dont like it, tell

for me, i;m not the old me anymore, 

i dont let people lead and decide for me anymore

i will be more bold.

the DIFFERENCES between my Diploma and Degree life are;

; Dip, we have competition, students just want to be more appealing than others, sometimes, they know stuff more but doesnt like sharing it with others, unhealthy kind of competition,

; Degree, i see competition too. its a must. but, i see a healthy kind of competition. they shared their tricks and techniques. they smiles honestly when they find people having the same interest as them, honestly saying "i'll teach you about it" , "lets do it together" , "lets practice together" .

we knows, we need a LOT to survive in this course, so we're helping each other..

sincerely

to tell u the truth, in my circle, there's only 2 girls of us. the others are boys. in my class, we got 5 girls and the other 13 are boys. 

even just in early semester, we already heard other classes said "we envied of you guys, u get along so well"

the only think i want to avoid, making group circle. 

lets all be friends rather than making circles

we got deadlines, a lot of them, we got to shoot and redo

shoot again, redo again

uncountless time.

i used to say AD is an easy going course, but, now when i feel it, it wasnt true at all

EVERY COURSE and STUDIES in the world, are HARD

dont compare

EVERYONE are trying to SURVIVE

if u think photomedia is easy going, try it

lets see if u know about good composition

i know that they are people that didnt even study in photography but able to have their own business in photography etc, 

thats true..

but, thats nothing wrong in learning properly abt things u loves

i dont judge u

we dont judge u

why did u judge us?

bcause we're useless?

shallow minded people thinks like that

(sorry for rudeness, but thats the truth)

after abt a month of being quiet about my degree, i made a statement and declaration on IG

i received feedbacks , positive ones.

i know they r still negatives ones out there, but whatever

when i first entered Diploma, people asked me, what is EM?

Estate? Ladang? getah? felda?

"no, its property"

now, when i entered Degree in Photomedia, people around me asked again,

"what photomedia do? what did u study, anyway?"

i'm sure the world is vast in modernisation, so,

people, please GOOGLE it

i'm tired of answering

u've grown big, u can think wisely and positively,

support each other, other people..

thats what human do to live in harmony 

i , am a late starter.. but i WILL BLOOM.

i STARTED off being in Matriculation in Accounting, FAILED to continue my Degree ,

RESTART in DIPLOMA of Estate/Property Management, for 3 years

DIDNT continue for DEGREE

RESTART my DEGREE in DIFFERENT course, another 3 years to go..

(where my other Dip coursemate only got 1 half years to grad in Degree)

my high school friends are getting ready to finish their degree..

my matriculation friends are all working by now, getting married and have a stable life where they can support their family,

my diploma friends have already found their path and managed to take short cut in degree...

while me, having so many UTURNS..

if u think ur life is hard? but doesnt feel what/how i feel, my life is HARDER

but, there are people out there are having a much more HARDER life...

Allah knows everything

He planned everything

He trust us, with tests

We

Should trust HIM too

 

 Salam

hai dear HeartStars!!

its been a while right?

 i've been busy with my new study life

my degree life

degree?

yes! finally! i grabbed the tittle, DEGREE!

 waited for 4 years for this title!

Alhamdulillah

i'm a late starter, but im coming

where did i pursue my study?

i'll tell you once everything is settled down

insyaAllah

right now, lets talk about my novels

I am an online novel writer

well, since i writes english novel, and malaysia rarely publish english works, so, 

i had to do it online

my grammar are still lackings but, i'm trying. i'm studying more

still, here are the websites where i usually post my works. 

feel free to visit them and comment on my works. 

https://www.wattpad.com/user/EiRaAthiRah

 here, in wattpad, you can read a lot of my works.

most of them arent in the final editing yet, but, feel free to read them

>_<

 you can click on the WORKS button to see my Novels list

https://eirastarheart.wordpress.com/

wordpress is the place where i posted my short stories/novels

i think it would be much more interesting for those that doesnt like to read long stories

lol

for this wordpress, click on the 'BLOG' button to see the sequel chapters for my short novels.

you can also check at the right panel for the entries

i thanked everyone that have the free time to read and promote my works to everyone.

but, please do not copy paste my works (plagiarism)

much appreciate for comments

thanks

till next time, guys~~

Assalamualaikum.
hey guys, hey HeartStar. How are you?!
Its been a while , right?

So, mark the tittle?
Yes! I got called for DEGREE Interview @ UiTM Shah Alam for March 2018 Intake!

what iv? what course? why?
well, i'll tell you everything once i passed the iv. The result is on 9/2/2018~

Okay, before d-day,
I asked for a day-off from my intern place on the Thursday (14/12/17) because me and my family were going to Terengganu to visit my grandparents there. At that time, we still havent decide to stay there for how long.
At Thursday evening, i received a text asking me to check the iv shortlisted. So, I did. I surf UiTM's webpage and click on the 'Semakan Panggilan Temuduga',
I filled in my ic number and wallaahhh! My name is on the list.
I was called for the iv! And guess what , the iv is on Saturday (16/12/17) !!

OMG! in two days? what am i gotta do?
I ss the notice and send it to my family ws group. Dad who didnt follow us to Terengganu didnt reply anything yet. While my mom keep on asking whether I want to go or not.

Honestly, at that time i was blanked. i didnt know that i would get called to the iv session since i am not done with my internship programme yet. plus, my family are having financial issues recently.

i did a lot of research and thinking, if i didnt go for the iv, i might get blacklisted for the course. i asked my sister's opinion and she asked me to postpone my degree and wait for her to finish hers first. this way, we can lighten the family financial a bit. i agree with that opinion but, i will end my degree studies late. and i DONT like that. being left behind by my friends, i hate that.

i have a talk with my mom and she suggested me to just go for it. she told me not to worry abt family financial as she and dad will find a way.
Conclusion, made.

God, i pray to u for their best.

Friday afternoon,
we head home. before that, we stopped by the Pepsi Blue Lake located at Marang, Terengganu. there will be a special entry for this place.
We arrived home after stopping a lot, around 1800 pm.

rushly, me and my sister packed our bags and i settle down my files, cert and documents for the iv. Dad booked two flight tickets for me and sister. We're going to KL right away that night. it was a chaos, to find a recognised stamp, make copies of documents, etc.

I brought along, documents, drawing kits such as 2B pencils and A3 paper.

i had to make an emergency plan, scouting friends that can aid us while in KL.

our flight to KL was at 2310pm that night and we arrived at KLIA2 around 0020am (Saturday/16-12-17)
. Me and my sister met up with Shidah and she took us to her grandma's house for a night stay.

The next morning,
We went straight to UiTM Shah Alam and snce shidah was driving a manual car, it was scary. there are many more courses that are having the iv on that day.

i went into the hall with other candidates as soon as i registered myself.
we listen to a 'talk' first for abt 45minutes and then taken to a studio on the first floor for a drawing session (45 minutes). we were asked to draw a medium that was already set up in the middle of the room (a veil*, chair, table and box) - use own A3 paper and pencil.

the students next to me were all very great. i am sooo doom.

then we were taken to the previous hall for the iv session. we were called one by one accrding to numbers given to us during the registration process earlier of that day.

it was thrilling. the wait. i noticed that most of the students there were all from STPM.

finally, its my turn!
i got a ma'am interviewer and the first thing she asked was for my drawing (that i drew from the drawing session) and all copies of my documents. she clipped them together after a short flipping pages to pages.

'i see that u're good in English and since u got A in SPM and Band (*) in MUET, i want u to speak in english with me. prove ur english skills to me, is that okay?

me - yes (smiles awkwardly bcause everyone else speaks in Malay except me(?))

her - so, tell me abt urself

me - my name is nur athirah bt zulkifle and my friends call me eira. i have only one sibling that is my elder sister and she's waiting outside for me. my parents, both work as a primary school teacher and we are currently living in Kelantan

her - (slips in) u're from kelantan? originally a kelantanese?

me - yes, yes i am

her - u doesnt looks like a kelantanese

me - (lol) yeah, i get that a lot

her - can u tell me why?

me - maybe because i travel to places like when i used to study in Johor and so on

her - true, but u're born and grew up in kelantan. u should at least have even just a bit of the accent. but u dont have any, why?

me - i have no idea where does it come from (lol)

her - (lol) okay, continue..

me - i also loves to travel and would like to takes pictures around the world

her - i see. so, do u have anything to show me , like ur ig. to show me the pictures u've taken before?

me - yes, yes i do (grabbed my phone in the bag)

me - (slowly put the hp on the table as she signalled first) here is my photography and arts ig

her - (look at it) so, where is the fartest place u traveled before? (while scrolling the ig)

me - the furtest for now, would be, Japan.

her - i see. what are ur style of photography?

me - freestyle, nature and kind a bit of the spontaneous style

her - can i ask u, why would u make ur ig customized like this? 3 similar pictures in the same row

me - to make my ig looks more interesting and it is my signature style. it look neat and attractive that way.

her - okay, nice. show me improvement, okay? (give the hp back to me)

me - i definitely will

her - do u have any photographer that u like or admire?

me - its not to that extend but, i have one. (paused) Shafiq Anak Salleh, if u're familiar with him

her - (nods) why?

me - he used to be my coach back then during the MyMoments Camp and he taught me a lot of technics and he commented pictures that i've taken. he gve off these positive vibes and i want to be like him someday

her - (smiles) u like his way of giving out?

me - yes

her - okay. also, u know that this course required a lot of financial supports, right? are u willing to take up the challenge?

(God! She was asking abt the thing that i've been worried so much from the time i was making the decision!! did she just entered my mind?)

me - (Bismillah) yes.

her - okay, good.. Eira, show me improvement, okay?

me - (dont quite understand) (nods anyway)

her - that's it. thank you. see u again~

me - thank you too~ we surely will

[The thing is, she asked me to speak in English while she speaks in Malay to me. Sometimes, I get confuse and almost answer her questions in Malay too!]

so, thats is it!!
end of my iv session on that day and i straigh awy went out to meet my sister. we waited for shidah and had lunch together before shidah dropped us off at KL Sentral.

Me n sis kept our bags at the KL Sentral's locker and went to MidValley for some refreshment. We enjoy our leisure time there and head back to KL Sentral to TBS . for the 9pm bus back to Kelantan.

it was a short tiring packed day at KL. Indeed. First bagpacking with le sister.

yeay~~ hope this trip wont come to waste. InsyaAllah